This Week In My (Virtual) Classes: Trailing Off

Woman Reading (Elinga)In spite of everything, our academic term here is wrapping up on schedule: we are now in the middle of our exam period, final grades are due May 1, and a week or two after that my department will hold a remote version of our annual “May Marks Meeting.” For me specifically, this means that I have now submitted final grades for one of my classes and that starting tomorrow I will be marking the take-home final exams for the other (for those who opted to write it) and then calculating and submitting those grades. And after that, I will be done with this teaching term, which feels like a genuine accomplishment, under the circumstances, but also like an enormous anticlimax. I never had a chance to say goodbye to my students–none of us really understood what was happening on what turned out to be our last day of face-to-face meetings, not just in the classroom but of any kind–and I also didn’t have a chance to deliver my traditional concluding perorations about the value and rewards of the work we had been doing.

English 3031 Exam Review (Winter 2020)

I did work some of these thoughts into the slide presentations I put together to cover the remaining course content and exam review, however. I wonder how many students actually went through those, after all the work I did on them! I guess one thing I’ll have to decide, as I work on my plans for approaching my fall teaching online, is whether I want to use more of the tracking features available in Brightspace–not so much because I think the students need surveillance but because it is (presumably) important to have some sense of what is or isn’t actually engaging the class. If the students aren’t looking at or completing the posted materials, that can’t be good.

At this point we don’t actually know for sure that the fall term will be all online, but we have been asked, quite rightly, to begin drawing up plans based on that strong possibility. In case any current or prospective students read this, I want you to know: your professors are going to dedicate themselves to making your fall term a good one, I promise. Most of us would absolutely rather see you in our classrooms as usual, but if we can’t, it won’t mean that we are any less committed to your education. We’re all inevitably going to fumble and struggle and screw up, at least those of us who are new to online teaching. But in my 25 years as a professor I have seen, so often and in so many ways, demonstrations of how deeply and personally–not just professionally–we all care about our students. There is bound to be a bit of grumbling from a lot of folks (including from me) about the mechanics of teaching online, and some lamentations (again including from me!) about how much we miss teaching you in person. But if this is how we have to carry on, well, okay then: we’ll do our best to rise to the occasion. It won’t be the same, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be any good.

three-guineasI guess that’s a sort of peroration, isn’t it? Apparently I’m working them in wherever I see an opportunity. Anyway, it’s odd and a bit sad to be wrapping up a term and feel so deflated about it. I think one reason it hits hard is that I spent so much time planning for this one, especially for the Brit Lit survey class–and I was so excited about Three Guineas and about moving from it to The Remains of the Day. Ordinarily at this point I would be throwing myself into choosing the readings for my first-year class in the fall, as instead of doing Pulp Fiction again I am taking on a section of “Literature: How It Works”; I’m finding that hard to focus on, though, both because there’s a lot I still don’t know about what kind or size of class it will be and because I have lost some enthusiasm for advance planning given how much I had to toss out this term. I did put in an order for the books for 19th-Century Fiction from Dickens to Hardy, but for whatever reason, for the first time I can remember it is not filling well (and it’s not, or not obviously, a coronavirus thing, as many of our other courses at that level seem to be filling up just fine) so that’s a bit deflating as well. But there’s time for all of this to get sorted.

In the meantime, I am getting a bit of my own reading done: I’m about 300 pages into The Mirror and the Light and loving it. There’s a gripping lucidity to Mantel’s prose that draws me right in. If I’m slow finishing the novel, that will be my fault, or the fault of my still floundering concentration, which has not been helped at all by the absolutely devastating events of this past weekend. When the last of my grades are filed, I think I’ll try to settle in and immerse myself in it, as a kind of mental vacation (if not a particularly sunny one!) before trying to come to grips with all the “what’s next” questions that would usually feel so energizing as we head into the spring and summer.

8 thoughts on “This Week In My (Virtual) Classes: Trailing Off

  1. Jeanne April 21, 2020 / 9:51 pm

    I did that too (much of what you’re talking about here, actually) but in particular settling in and immersing myself in the last half of The Mirror and the Light.

    • Rohan Maitzen April 22, 2020 / 6:54 pm

      It’s so good. It doesn’t really seem that long (not that I’m whizzing through it, but compared to Ducks, Newburyport, which seemed interminable by the time I gave up at 100 pages, it reads very crisply). Congratulations on getting through the term.

  2. Colleen April 22, 2020 / 9:23 am

    I still haven’t even bought The Mirror and the Light, in part because I’m reading a maximum of 20 pages a day right now. I’m still on War in Val D’Orcia, which seems as unending as the current world situation. I’m glad you’re getting some good personal reading in, in spite of everything. I was looking at Holbein’s portraits last night and noting how he managed to make Cromwell look like a thug in spite of his fancy clothes…and that if I can’t read her now, it’s a very good thing to have some Mantel to look forward to!

    • Rohan Maitzen April 22, 2020 / 6:55 pm

      I love Holbein’s portraits: his people look so specific, somehow. Yes, it has been nice having it to look forward to up to now, and I hope I manage to conquer my distraction and do the settling into it that I’ve got planned.

  3. Melissa Beck April 23, 2020 / 1:55 pm

    I have about 6 weeks left in the term. You are so right about ending the year this way. It feels so strange that all of the usual end of year activities won’t be help. There is no real opportunity for closure or saying goodbye, which is very depressing.

    • Rohan Maitzen April 23, 2020 / 2:59 pm

      Isn’t it? And because we were (rightly) instructed to create off-ramps for our students to make it as easy as possible for them to wrap things up (because we had just a couple of weeks to go anyway), that means some of my students really had no need to check back in after the first week or so–so though I did create end-of-term materials, a lot of them never saw them. 😦

      • Melissa Beck April 23, 2020 / 3:43 pm

        Oh that is awful! All that material you put together to have some of them not see it! I’m sorry.

        • Rohan Maitzen April 23, 2020 / 5:45 pm

          I know. I was a bit crushed when I saw the stats but it’s a learning experience about how / where to put in the right kind of effort, I suppose. Plus it is not exactly normal life for them, so it’s a lot to expect that they’d want to do more than they absolutely had to at this point.

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